DIARY OF HER LIFE

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

I thought having my ramadhan here in egypt gonna be the most worse ramadhan ever. I thought I'm gonna be badly homesick, yeah..being away from family. I thought this is the most worse thing ever happened to me. But I forgot, we planned everything but HE always the ONE that decide the path of our life.

Deep in my little heart, I'm glad I'm having my ramadhan here. But still, other side of my heart I want to spend ramadhan with my family. Being away from them is very hard for me. Honestly, the original 3 months holiday is the only way for me to recharge my battery. My mental and physical battery to use for the next 9 months in egypt.

But that plan, didn't went well as I planned. I return to Malaysia for one month and that news come. I gotta go back to egypt. I got nothing to say to myself. MY friend said, it's my fault. MY other friend said, just think of it as holiday. Only one month and I still can spend the eid ul fitri with my family. Yeah, but still I hope it never happened to me. At that time, I just keep my cheer face in front of my family. I don't want them to be sad especially my parents. I know I dissapoint them but I just want them to know I'll do everything for the sake of my family. Whatever it is.

And here I am, in egypt..again. Fasting for 14 hours, the hot summer breeze, the syahdu tarawih. I'll just do my time here for one month and I'll be back in Malaysia in no time. I just hope I'll do better for everyone sake's.

p/s: dan..apa khabar iman anda hari ini? I hope mine is better than yesterday.

love,

fatimaazmi